From the eyes of the beholder

*ur probably the only one reading this adrian*
so life has turned back to last 4/18
yup its happening again
i still don't know whats going on
life just tooo fucked up
ppl just don't wanna talk and discuss things
just i want to do this, we're doing this
thats just fucked up

like as if my life wasn't fucked enough
now 2 psychos claim that i was cheating, me cheating? wtf when has ivan ever got so lucky that several girls are insterested in me and persistant enough to get in my pants for a change
if i was a swinger i would have fucked up my relationship within weeks or months
and i quote:
deutschePyro (11:05:20 PM): anyone who knows you can vouch for you as an honest, loyal, morally upstanding person
deutschePyro (11:05:26 PM): and i don't mean that as any kind of joke
deutschePyro (11:06:15 PM): you're no prude, but you don't fuck people over, and you don't lie when it isn't right
joy how some ppl actually believe that i would cheat
only time i cheat would be on computer games against the stupid cheating computer who knows all my moves.....................
ugh
btw if u see me getting arrested for the brutal beating of 2 individuals well now u know y, them 2 lying son of a bitch got what was coming to them

so the other day my friend adrian almost died due to a car accident that could have happen
he dropped his car off at a mechanic shop and was at a bus stop when another bus across the street came by so he ran across and the lights changed on him and he threw himself over a car and got on the bus all the while the driver open his door to yell at him

ok so ppl that were worried i'm more of less ok
lesson of the wise don't listen to everything ppl tell u
in depression but riding out of it(don't ask me how), though a some brandy or vodka be nice
be a shot while but i will be smiling again (just hit him that i havn't smiled in a week for the first time in life)

so on AIM u now have bots like SmarterChild that u can talk to and can respond
AznIncendiaries (10:26:12 PM): yaoi or hentai?
SmarterChild (10:26:12 PM): Definitely yaoi.
SmarterChild is a for sure a gay homo and now ask me to say i'm sorry but i havn't for calling him gay

oooo and i'm gonna be in a suit tomorrow for my mock trial, oj simpson case, prosecution attonery (can't spell) i have not spoken a single word in my government class so its like omg wtf ivan can talk! i hate talking in class but oh wells
so yea black and white, a tie if i can get someone to help me with it, a briefcase if a can find one and like hmmm maybe do something with my hair

hehe u poor suckers that arn't seniors have fun with ur sad lil star testing weeeeeeeee

so its like 3:38 am
its morning
i feel like shit
tylenol kept my migraine down
still wanna puke though
ugh
these pass two weeks have been terrible
i better get hella wasted tommorrow

well lets see
got up and got ready to go out
went out and had the best day of my life so far
and got home
reason: movie-Goblet of fire, ice cream(not really), dinner, and the biggie: spending all day with the person i like
wow did alot of walking today
and soon sleep, sleep is good

well putting aside my anger, i'm happily anticipating tomorrow
sunny, got movie: Goblet of fire and hanging out with a special someone
haha just reorganized my closet of clothes, i lack shoes!!!!!!!!! avg guy only has 3 while an avg girl has 8+ haha harder to match clothes
now only thing to reorganized left is my desk and backpack....nah nvr gonna do that

still in a shitty mood but slightly better
flowers and plants usually brings peace.....
did some venting by doing some shadow boxing in the parking lot while doing laundry at the local laundry mat.
pain feels good but i still need my hand tommorrow so no punching the wall or other hard painful objects....
sigh where r my pyro, weapon and martial art nuts around when i need them most

8:30 Arrive at school. Mood: anticipation/worry. Reason: 3 quizs and a presentation.
Period 1: AP stat quiz. Wasn't too hard, manage to finish all of it.
Period 2: Composition. Presentation/debate: Crap. Feeling really tired and pissy.
Period 3: Physics.
Lunch: Everything was fine. Didn't eat really.
Period 4: Didin't have quiz essay in ACC Economics. Only highlight of the day
Period 5: Finished my 'compound' form project. Made a really cute bunny. Wondering what i should do with it later.
Period 6: Went around looking at what movies r out and just walked around.
Overall, crappy day. Sleepy, pulled a mususle in my leg, pain walking around but biting the bullet, slightly drugged up but doesn't help pain much(need stronger pain killers). Hate the debate cause no one was ready and my group had to go first, sucked balls, Dao only choose my group cause she doesn't wanna fail the black kids cause they wouldn't be able to graduate, the preps didn't have their stuff and she likes them, so she decides to screw up the asian guys. The quizes were ok. Lunch was ok kinda.
After school was like confusing, things were pissing me off and was unfortunately ignored the whole afternoon, even a moouse cake can't make me better(maybe something else might *hint*). Afternoon was depressing, same was the start of the day. The female race as a whole are confusing. A pity there is no book that explains how girls think and things mean. I should head over to the dojo and break some boards grrr too bad there is a class in session. Next guy to tick me off gets the full impact of my bottle up emotions and anger. Must find something to vent.
Oh joy another highlight of the day got tickets to Harry Potter 4 for Saturday. As i always told myself "To live for a better tomorrow."

Wooohooo i have a livejournal now....now what....
oh wells jolly jolly joy
3 more hrs till Harry Potter 4 comes out
can't wait till this weekend for known reasons.....